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NONFICTION: Cradling the Cat, Bernard Grant

  Cradling the Cat Bernard Grant   In pictures, Marissa is a mass of black fur, no face. Only her eyes appear, big and yellow, though at night her pupils expand and her eyes resemble big black buttons. According to the paper that was taped to her cage, she’s a medium-haired domestic. I’m no expert, but I see her as long-haired, especially when she stands beside the short-haired tabby that lives here, my roommate’s cat, an attention-seeker. Marissa is shy, though not quiet. She squeaks and coos like a baby. She’s a year and a month old, a teenager in cat years. True to teenage nature she finds ways to complicate her caretaker’s life. She sits on my books while I’m reading them, wakes me at odd hours, pawing and meowing, and decides my bed is best to explore while I’ll making it in the mornings. She climbs into crevices—to what end, I’m unsure—and onto bookshelves, knocking pens, paperclips, and other small items to the floor, frightening herself. Sudden sounds and movements send her dashing into the closet. She’s new to this house. I am, too. When my sudden illness—an atrophied cerebellum, ataxia—illuminated the difficulties I was having with my...
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Interview with Apogee Journal’s New Staff: Safia Jama

  We are so thrilled to welcome Safia Jama to Apogee Journal’s editorial team as our newest Nonfiction Editor! See what she has to say about finding community, seeing herself in the work of writers and artists of color, and what it means to love “work that doesn’t care to be likeable.”   Apogee Journal [AJ]: Welcome to Apogee. Tell us a little about how you came to Apogee Journal. What brought you here? Safia Jama [SJ]: I bought my first copy of Apogee Journal at the Housing Works Bookstore two years ago. I saw a painting of a black woman on the cover, her hands clasped over a white dress. (I later realized this ‘painting’ was in fact a beautiful photograph by Rachel Eliza Griffiths.) Riding the subway home, I began to read this journal that seemed unlike any other. I remember how my own brown hands mirrored the hands on the journal’s cover. I read an interview with Rich Benjamin. In it, he talks about his study of “whiteopias,” the virtually all-white communities situated near idyllic nature settings. I remember thinking about mountains and rivers and white people hiking with their families as I rode the F train back to my ethnically diverse neighborhood in...
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Interview with Apogee Journal's New Staff: Esmé-Michelle Watkins

  Apogee Journal is excited to welcome Esmé-Michelle Watkins as our newest Fiction Editor on our editorial team. See what she has to say about being a writer and lawyer, literary justice, and the book that was so spectacular, she threw it against the wall.   Apogee Journal [AJ]: Welcome to Apogee Journal! As a fiction writer and attorney, you are part of a long legacy of lawyer-poets from Wallace Stevens to Monica Youn. How do you see these two aspects of your working life coming together? Does one influence the other? If so, how? Esmé-Michelle Watkins [EW]: I became an attorney because I am immensely concerned with effecting justice in the world. I suppose I am a writer for the same reason. The most elemental function of language is to control an experience or history by describing it. If our cultural histories are not embraced by language in this way, they are subject to erasure. Growing up, I didn’t come across too many fictional characters who looked or sounded like me or folks in my family. It was clear from an early age that we were part of a periphery that wasn’t always celebrated in the canon. I think we’ve...
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NONFICTION: Year of the Jack Rabbit, Hannah Lee Jones

  Year of the Jack Rabbit Hannah Lee Jones   Happy new year of marveling how different and alike we are, in a Korean restaurant so busy that I’m squeezed against an Indian mother who’s with a boy who looks more like me than her. I’m puzzling this out when she explains that her son is by the counter and the one beside me is his friend, together for a Lunar New Year that’s two weeks of bao and sticky rice and strangers around tables like ours, a scrim of bamboo leaves on one end and steaming bowls of manduguk on the other. Our waitress reminds me of my aunt who just died, the leather-jacketed guy in the corner is a doppelgänger of my father at 20 and I’m pretending this kid with soup glazing his chin is my little brother. It’s hot, he complains. I tell him I hear him: hot like the wild-eyed horses our ancestors rode thundering over deserts you and I will never see. Hot like my father at 22 looking like a Mongolian John Wayne, but that was in pictures. Now I’m outside the corner store watching lion dancers wish the owners a year of good fortune,...
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FICTION: Skinny Tea, Chekwube O. Danladi

  Skinny Tea Chekwube O. Danladi   The summer before we started 9th grade, a month after we were both finally fifteen, Georgie and I decided that we would stop eating. We made resolutions. Georgie wanted to stop eating so that people would no longer make fun of the thick rolls that coated her belly, chin, arms, and thighs. I wanted to lose weight so that I could fit into a too-small yellow thrifted bathing suit that mama bought me, because she couldn’t return it. The day we decided, we were on the swings at Towanda Park, behind the Metro station. Georgie and I were competing with each other to see who could swing higher. Her thick legs were tucked behind her, woodchips gathering in the ridged toes of her beaten Adidas every time she came down into her inverted arch. Competition was always the game with Georgie: who could swing the highest, who could use the biggest words, who could read the most books in one week. Our competition was always about self-improvement and self-preservation. We were each other’s only best friends. We hid together in the school library during lunch breaks because we were too shy to eat...
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Poems by Mya Green

by Mya Green Changeling Time’s mouth is wide as infinities, womb flexed, daughterson pulled from darkest ink ankles, wrists, roped, wildest wolf couldn’t cut free—echo the underbelly you palpated, broodmother coccyx, in release. Urchin heart, a tin-cage hum-hum in false -etto. This rage bereft of face, demands a name. Fault of my original fault. Mistress of long memory, sweet suet taken as tallow. Kingmaker or con, same mathematics, new chasma, remember: Carry the one, conquer, divide by none. Damage Path Tornado, I see your witness and your face: strip malls off McFarland filled with themselves, straw driven up-tree down the dirtroads, quick to enter our corner lot, the yellow shackhouse, birthright broke open, our larvae exposed. Mosquitoes here bite low like fleas, I think, Father, we are nesting dolls. I am latent daughter gestating inside you––our vices complementary––we are black links ‘round Daisy’s pluming ankles, anchors ’round this stilted house and I’ve heard I can grow without roots (like moss): Tornado, I am your witness and your face.

Featured Artist: Grant Worth

Grant Worth “Hele, Wikiwiki”, 2013. Polaroid Type 600 Print, 4.5″ x 3.5″   “Laelaps and the Fox”, 2009. Polaroid Type 600 Print, 4.5″ x 3.5″   “Leo and Four Angels”, 2010. Digitally Obscured Polaroid Type 600 Print , 4.5″ x 3.5″ “Cesium of the Sea”, 2013. Polaroid Type 600 Print, 4.5″ x 3.5″

Poems by Khadijah Queen

by Khadijah Queen ___________________ the usual old shoe still lifes in October, birds again I’m en plein air Victorian patio-style when on the roof’s right corner, a thuggish blue jay lands heavily on tarred shingles & departs after a feral glance my way. Lighter, sparrows inch closer in, moss-mouthed, plumping eaves for nesting. Flashes of jet on the jay’s face, its tail, white on azure, such a serious flight, in my sunstroked eyes make a faded photograph I double-expose, which reminds me I left a hair tie in your bucket seat. But I’m alone at this cabin. The floor’s wood grain so old it snags my good socks. What would I do barefoot? Tire my legs out & splinter, trying to run from soft creatures.   Miniature Odes [Black Tears]: One fell from a chandelier, lacquered, catching sun. Inelegant, cartoonish eyes in onyx relief, diminished relative to cavernous space [Lambrechts]: You only get one window in this scratch-off game—patchwork graphic wood. What seems like seeping approximates in revelation, an allowance of the eye—feathering practice, no dancing [O collagist]: O montage maker of scenes ancient & modern & profane, O superimposer of meaninglessness upon the suffering voiceless in the gloss of...
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Poems by Roberto Montes

by Roberto Montes (no subject) –     Learn the skills     for your DREAM job    sleeping is free in some habitats  Keep a dream journal   leave it behind   My sister taught me this   inexpensive trick they don’t want you to know     It’s all your fault     and cicadas are not a natural phenomenon   if you love them enough They’ll collect    your outstretched arm   is a branch to them   Do you care   your potential is right here   I agree WHOLEHEATEDLY  you can discover a better orgasm   means the same    Around 3,153/week   Sloping downward    when leaving any speeding thing they tell you       bring your knees in   Hold on to your knees        they say    can do you that for me   will you do that for me         of course   in the air it’s all the same        You slide comfortably in  There you are (no subject) – Take my advice I can make you a good time bachelor My sister had a problem I couldn’t stop her from solving My curl fell like a child My feet reduced or grew in size depending Where they were Who they supported One promising method was...
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