A Lyric Video Essay by Vanessa Angelica Villarreal​

“Estrellada” is a video poem investigating the boundary between what can be remembered and what is irretrievably lost. Filmed in the poet’s childhood home, it documents the damages of time, illness, and depression to the deteriorating 900 sq foot starter house, a symbol of the American Dream. It imagines the border, and the urgency of her family’s crossing, as also a psychological and generational rupture that widens and widens inside the body and mind of the crossed. The family photos call back to memory and longing, aware of the generational traumas that pushed the family into this country, and the resultant familial loss to brutal circumstances. The poem engages unflinchingly with the affective costs of assimilation, taking a reparative gaze as the photos move forward in time, documenting the poet’s physical and cultural transition, as well as her eventual desertion as the subjects of the photos diminish in number. The poem ends on hospital and alternative school intake photos, marking the beginning of her American self—no longer surrounded by family, she is assimilated, estranged from her people, obviously in mourning, alone in the frame.

Forlorn & Forming Self: Off the Cuff with Jahmal B. Golden

  Mother of Yves, Jahmal B. Golden is iconic in our community of creators in New York City. They are brilliant, creative and out-here, dedicated to bringing femme community together. Among many commitments, Jahmal curates Fox Wedding, a reading and performance series in Brooklyn and has work forthcoming in The New Museum in collaboration with RAGGA NYC. I was thrilled when they offered to share with Apogee­ Journal their collection in advance of its publication. Yves, Ide, Solstice (Easy Village Publishing) chronicles losing at love in triptych-form. It explores the ways in which love (or losing at it) complicates perceptions of self and identity-formation. Yves, Ide, Solstice launches this April and is available for sale online.

WRITING RESISTANCE

Registration required. Enroll here.   APRIL 19, 7-9 PM: Naomi Jackson APRIL 22, 11-1 PM: Joey De Jesus APRIL 22, 2-4 PM: Alexandra Watson, Raluca Albu & Safia Jama MAY 3, 7-9 PM: Rowan Hisayo Buchanan MAY 6, 11-1 PM: Mahogany Browne MAY 6, 2-4 PM: Chinelo Okparanta MAY 17, 7-9 PM: Robert Lopez MAY 20, 11-1 PM: Stacy Parker La Melle MAY 20, 2-4 PM: JP Howard Thanks to the generous funding of the Brooklyn Arts Council, we are able to provide five scholarships per class. Applications are due by April 15th. Applicants will be notified by Monday April 17th if they’ve been selected for their class requests. Apply here.   **All workshops will be held at the James E. Davis Arts Building at 80 Hanson Place. The space is ADA compliant, wheelchair accessible. Interpreter available upon request. Please email editors@apogeejournal.org and let us know how we can make the series more accessible to you.**